Shine Your Crazy Light

Jennifer Boonlorn

Posted on August 23 2013

This is my key chandelier, designed, constructed and installed by the master of all realms creative - Bob Wilkinson. Bob and I came up with the concept for the chandelier within minutes of each other. We were not happy with any of the pre-fabricated light fixtures that were on the market, and we wanted to create a custom chandelier for my Beadle Box. I had suggested we take Voss Water Bottles and fill them with my craft supplies -- scraps of ribbon, beads, items left over items from my Henri Bendel headband making days. Bob told me to "Stick a pin in it...And to keep brainstorming." As well as headbands, I had been making key barrettes from vintage keys. One morning I stuck my key barrette in my hair and the idea dawned on me -- we should use keys - LOTS of them! I immediately called my creative partner in crime and before I could even get the words out - Bob told me he had an idea for the chandelier - KEYS! Creative serendipity!

That was three years ago. The chandelier is my shining example that anything you truly believe in takes time to develop and bring to fruition. For some reason, I seem to be a magnet, for odd unsolicited comments and advice. When I told people about the chandelier there was plenty of snarky-migraine-inducing comments. I KNEW of the marvel that was coming, so I just ignored their comments. I had faith that what we were creating with this remodel was so much greater than any of their limited judgements and preconceived notions.

People are extremely protective of me. I think because my parents are gone, people feel the need to watch out for me, and make sure I am not going down the "wrong road" -- financially, spiritually, mentally...etc. I am all for seeking advice from those that have gone ahead of me in life --  gaining wisdom from the lessons they have already learned. HOWEVER, and this is a gigantic however, I have blindly swallowed their knowledge, at the expense of not trusting my own intuition. We are all hardwired with INTUITION. And even if something worked out beautifully for someone else, it does not mean it is the same route and path that I should now follow. I have put more power in the advice of others versus valuing where I wanted to go, and doing what I wanted to do with my life. My ideas, dreams, and goals may be unconventional - but they are my "unconventional" and my journey to live!

Everything happens for a reason, and even if I do go down the "wrong road" it is my mistake to make, and my mess to clean up. Being authentic means being you even when the rest of the world has a different idea of how you should behave and act.

Brene Brown talks about not allowing people who are not "in the arena" boss you around with their comments and their judgment that is thinly veiled as "advice and deep care".  It always cracks me up how adamant people can become when telling me exactly how I should run Soul Carrier - when they have no idea about manufacturing, what it takes to manage a team of sewers, or all the intricacies that seem to pop up when producing bags. Maybe these people have stock in Advil -- because the comments are migraine inducing ;-) I am doing the best that I can -- but my best may not be good enough for the outside world. But as Brene also drives home - we are all WORTHY and we are all ENOUGH. Pleasing people and keeping them happy is not where my worth comes from -- or how Soul Carrier is going to become the brand that I want it to become.

My very best friends, and my favorite people to turn to for advice, often don't dole out any advice at all -- they just hold space for me to be me! They let me shine my light without every judging it, or trying to make me go down a path that is so not me.

This chandelier with all its magnificent shadows will be my daily symbol for living life from a place of light. Your light is your truth. The more authentic you are, the brighter you will show up in the world! And the more you squelch, who you really are, in order to please, to fit in, and to justify, the dimmer and duller, your light becomes -- and in my case, the more intense the migraine ;-)) !!!!

I now really understand Steve Job's quote "Here's to the crazy ones, the misfits, the rebels, the troublemakers, the round pegs in the square holes... the ones who see things differently -- they're not fond of rules... You can quote them, disagree with them, glorify or vilify them, but the only thing you can't do is ignore them because they change things... they push the human race forward, and while some may see them as the crazy ones, we see genius, because the ones who are crazy enough to think that they can change the world, are the ones who do."

To the crazy ones who are willing to shine LIGHT!



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